doodle-doo.

i just wanna know how..

hello folks,

it’s me again.

with sorrow (oh God, again??????)

well, yes. it’s about proud. pride. or whatever its called.

maybe it’s not hurt when you hear people talking about people’s excesses. maybe you’ll going to be happy when everybody’s having their success. but take a look at yourself. did you ever make anyone proud? did you ever do something great until people see that you’re good enough?

seriously, i feel like i’ve never done something good for people. make my friends proud? nope. make my cousins proud? nope. make my brothers proud? another nope. make my family proud? nope. make your parents proud? a BIG nope.

so, what should i do to make them proud? hmm, tough question. yeah, it is tough because what people think is different from what you’re thinking. maybe you think that you do a very good job, but they don’t think so. hard. yes it’s hard.

another pessimistic sentences from me. but i know i can prove something. i know i can do good things. i hope those as big as my brothers did. so my parents can see hahaha.

it’s not sorrow, it’s not pessimist, it’s not sad. but it’s a challenge for me to make those things happen.

toodles!

annoying mom and daughter

hello folks,

i just saw ice age 3 and it was funny. entertaining. well, i had this experience with mom and daughter who sat beside me during the movie.

mom and daughter, age unknown. they were like talking a LOT during the show. the kid talked and laughed with loud voice and i started to ‘ssshhh’ her. and then the mom talked with her loud voice too and i ‘sshh’ her too.  and they both talked with their loud voice until i found it very annoying so i ‘sssssssshhhhhhhh’ them with a long ‘ssh’. (FYI, it was not only me who tried to make them shut their mouth). they kept talking like there’s nobody there, i stared at the daughter with mean eyes.

AND! the daughter said ‘MAMA MAMA LIAT ADA YANG NGELIATIN AKU DISEBELAH MAMA’. aaagh, this kid is sooo annoying and then the mom said ‘ih biarin aja. kan kalo lucu emang harus ketawa yaaaaaaaaa’ with her super annoying voice. so i said ‘ya tapi biasa aja kali ketawanya’. she replied ‘yaaa namanya juga anak kecil. ya ngga?’ she looked at her daughter. and i said ‘nah elu? ketawa kenceng, ngomong kenceng. ngga maklumin kali kalo dia anak kecil’. and she just groaning and shut her mouth. and before it, she stared at me and i stared at her back. hahaha. scary.

they were like having this coalition. i bet when the daughter grow up, she’ll be as annoying as her mother.

*adieu to you and you and youuu

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GATI ADRIRATI my lovely cousin :D

hello folks,

i get so bored with life so i don’t know what to write here. haha. i’m going to tell you about the stupid brothers. my own brothers. yes, the big and the little one.

the big looks like…

kinda creepy, huh? yeah, that’s right. he’s scary in a weird way. he’s cruel sometimes. he likes to jump at me with his super-duper-mega-ultra heavy body. people seems like telling me that he’s *ahem* handsome *puke*. yeah, maybe they right.. ONLY A LITTLE. he can be sooo quite and can be so crazy.

but i like him when he told me to do something good for myself. i like him when he acts like an insane guy but it’s hilaaarious so i go laugh super loud. and the way he ridicules people….. he has a lot of stupid words to representing what he mean. he can be a nice big brother.

the little looks like..

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this.

he’s waaaaay cooler than my big brother. no, i mean really. he’s calm and a game freak. he’s already in high school. *clap clap. i think i don’t know much bout my little brother because he’s just so mysterious.

i like him when he told me and my big brother a story. because it’ll end up like…. zonk. (we don’t understand what he’s been talking about).

see our faces. (mine’s a trash ahaha)

please, take a look at yourself..

hello folks,

again, i feel i’m unwell again. well, it’s about people (again).

i’m kinda tired of people who underestimate me. there’s a girl, who can mock me all the time and kinda (almost) always say cynics words and sentences about me. i feel like ‘okay, she’s making fun of me. i shouldn’t get angry. just laugh or give her some giggles’. but she does it like, all the time. i get tired. not only because of that behaviour of hers, but also because something that she likes to do (i don’t really want to talk about it). and i start to give her those cynics stuffs of mine. oh my God, seriously. i don’t wanna give her those. but it comes out of my mouth just like that. oh well.

and then, here it comes this girl. she’s kinda older than me and i’ve a kinda close relationship with her, like family. she’s soooo fun when her mood is up. but when it gets down, prrrrt, *poof* the fun, is gone!. then she starts to blame me for something. she always likes my cousin better than me. well, who doesn’t?

about the comparison, yes. people are better than me. yeah, i don’t know about that. i just try to live my life like what i supposed to do. in my family, i feel like a stranger. i feel like i’m the weirdest, the freakiest, the stupidest, the most given burden child ever. oh my God, i feel like i always groan about this stuff. they’re liking my cousins personality that’s bubbly, kind, nice, girly or everything nice. but they don’t like my personality that goes up and down. yeah, i admit that i don’t have any specialties. but i try my best for my family and myself. but they just don’t see it. i just start crying because of it. :’( and i get so tired. and sooo damn tired. i can go scream.

i feel like just asking ‘when will they see my good side than the bad side?’.